Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
(Rom12:12)

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

broken, blessed and beloved

here I am just typing the title but not quite knowing what I have to write about..not a dozen, not even a hundred postings can list the things that has broken me in this life but what is truly important are the life-changing milestones in my life that came from God. What are the things that I believe can be identified as a "touch from the Lord"? Just when He touched the thigh of Jacob, there are a lot of things that touched me and broke me, my self-will, my self-esteem, my pride. And I wanted to believe everything is okay, I am fine now, but every single one of them brought pain to my very core, and while experiencing it, I would not have known it was for my benefit, it was not something I would relish. But God meant to bring out the good in all bad news. He planned for this brokenness to be a blessing to me. This is all because He loved me first before I even knew Him. At the cross, I understand the height and depth of Love. It is at the cross that I intersected with the Spirit of Divine affection. It is the cross that cost Jesus everything. It was His broken body which bore the scourging, and carried the cross. It was His broken heart that saw sin in me, it was not in Him but it was His to pay. His brokenness means that I can always be made whole!
Looking back, I wish I could put into words everything about my brokenness. Perhaps later, when I am at life's end I can truly say I am "broken to be blessed, because I am beloved.". "My lover is mine and I am his;" Song of Solomon 2:16

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