Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
(Rom12:12)

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Lonely no more!

this was originally posted for the first day of June but I guess I am off by 2 days, anyway, anyway I was reading my devotional and one phrase caught my eye. it says" a person who spends a lonely time with God does not come away empty" and it talked about how we can draw strength from taking the time out with our Lord and exposing our raw hurts and sadness to Him. He does not mind, He knows our inner being, He loves us more than we can ever love ourselves. I had some cause for sadness since the start of this year and has been with me until now but soon I learned that I am never alone but that He is my Immanuel- God with us! I saw a documentary wherein world renowned, multi-prize awarded architect was being interviewed about his life. He was saying that his life was a big ball of anxiety. I was struck to the heart because that is what my life is now " a big ball of worthless worries and self-destructing sadness". I did not plan it. I did not like myself being like this. I struggle to overcome. I deliberately make conscious choices everyday so I can cope. Whereas other people take their wholeness for granted, mine is not, it is a result of a painful process of deciding moment by moment what my day will turn out to be. God gave me a gift of laughter and a sense of humour that my husband and I have in common. Together we face our days..as..it..comes. Lonely no more! Only because God gives me the triumphs. I may not be smiling all the time, there are days spent in tears. But I laugh with my Redeemer! And lonely no more...

1 comment:

Relgin said...

i told you countless time!
don't worry!
you gathered another idea
good on you mum