Joy unspeakable joy

it is amazing that I can write about joy when last week I learned that I am going into surgery, and days later, my sister (who lived overseas) called me up and said she was diagnosed to have Breast Cancer and today my car won't run and has to be left in the carpark.....Unspeakable Formidable Inexplicable Joy, joy you can dance to, joy you can jump about, joy you can shout until your lungs burst....is that how I feel then? now? later? yes and yes! it doesn't mean I was ecstatic at the surgeon's office, or laughing at my sister or danced at the carpark not knowing how I can get home...BUT it is the teflon-like peace that covers me and trials just slide over it, it is the pure diamond strength that enabled me to comfort my sister and pray for her over the phone every week, it is the Shalom Wholeness that enveloped me inspite of the distressing events that threatened to shatter my very core. Through it all, I can still share the awe of the psalmist when he said "Let everything that has breath praise Him!" - jcvr